Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting

Disclaimer: You're welcome to browse through but unless I state otherwise, everything on this site belongs to me.
Do email/leave a message if you would like to copy anything. Remember: I'd absolutely love to accommodate you. :)
If you don't like what you read, especially those who just cannot stand profanities (oops), it's at your discretion to close your web browser at any time.



alynna
On the 3rd of November 1988, a baby was highly eager to see the world but now wishes she can just snuggle under her quilt and sleep the days away...

That's me. I'm nineteen, Malaysian but studying down under now in Brisbane.

Get ahold of me:

(CURRENT) Australia: +61413852698


<< May 2006 >>
Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat
 01 02 03 04 05 06
07 08 09 10 11 12 13
14 15 16 17 18 19 20
21 22 23 24 25 26 27
28 29 30 31



If you want to be updated on this weblog Enter your email here:



rss feed






 
Thursday, May 25, 2006
Fall, Part 3
It's not a mad, fleeting crush. This isn't about feeling like a teenager with raging hormones, lusting after the hottest boy in your grade or the girl next door with the brilliant smile, even if they're just that. It's not about wanting back seats in the cinema or someone that you can show off to your friends just to show that you can hook the best male or female specimen.

It's about being able to push aside the hormones, lust, fantasies and daydreams, and seeing something else there. Some call it love. Whatever it is, it's that.

You really would take them as they are. Perfect or not. You can easily disregard the flaws that make themselves known to you. Suddenly, his previous brags about taking any chick he can pick up back to his place don't matter as much. The fact that she breaks down in tears everytime she thinks of him only makes you feel like taking her into your arms and kissing away her tears, telling her it'll all be alright. You're willing to put up with anything, go against your own values and beliefs, just to make it happen.

Just to hear them say yes, they'll take that step forward with you.

Something in you tells you it'll be so right, even the only thing that could make sense in your life. You don't know how someone who has known you for such a short period of time can read you like an open book, when those who have known you for longer question your simplest actions. You've forgotten what life was like before she waltzed in. You're so caught up in wanting to be involved in his everyday that your everyday disappears. You shrug it off when you realise this because it seems to be all you need to make your day right.

And you slowly realise that there is no you without her laughter, or his words.

But you can't help it. You just know that without a word from him for a day, you're incomplete. If she doesn't reply your sms, you pace around your room, waiting so anxiously. All sorts of thoughts run through your head with your rationality down the drain. Intoxicated, you do stupid things that don't make sense to you when you awake. Simplicity no longer exists.

So, like the whistling kettle, you decide maybe it's time to take it off the stove, stop keeping the way you feel to yourself before you scald yourself. Too bad you never noticed how burnt you already are...

Posted at 01:08 pm by alynna

SiN
June 2, 2006   06:36 PM PDT
 
pain~
mervkwok
May 28, 2006   03:21 AM PDT
 
Tumor I tell ya! Tumor!

>If she doesn't reply your sms...

That part, it's so so very true =(
Alynna
May 28, 2006   02:17 AM PDT
 
Max: NOT FA. NOT FA. NOT FA.
You do not have a thick skull... so why is it taking you so long to get it? :P

Loong: Thanks. :) Yes, he's addicted to that show.

WY: It's always better to give it a shot!
wy
May 26, 2006   02:50 AM PDT
 
i used to feel that way. and i tell you, its silly. some things are better left unsaid
Loong
May 25, 2006   10:39 PM PDT
 
Pretty good description of your feelings / observations.

Meredith Grey ... is that the intern from that doctor show on Astro?
Max
May 25, 2006   07:40 PM PDT
 
You're turning into a hybrid between FA and Meredith Grey, being single is good, Good, GOOD! It's GOOD!
 

Leave a Comment:

Name


Homepage (optional)


Comments




Previous Entry Home Next Entry