How long has it been this way...? I've honestly lost count of the days that this has been going on. Because I hate them...

You say I see things my way so stubbornly. Why is it I can say the same thing about you? You have such a fixed view that it'll work out. You've told me that my preception of myself is skewed. I can lash back that no one knows myself better than I do. But no, you have to be right about it all, don't you? It's stopped being about me a long time ago. It's you... Please realise that it isn't going nowhere, and save the time, effort, feelings for someone else.

Even if I don't take that many chances, and you chastise me for that, it's just one of the things that I can't change about myself. I can't change the principles I live by just in the blink of an eye, and if I could, I probably won't... There're so many reasons why this wouldn't work, and maybe you don't see them as deterrents, but I do, and we all know it takes two to tango.

I haven't learned the lesson that it's always better to have someone who loves you than someone you love, and I probably never will. But I hope you will... Because I've been in your shoes and I've hated it. But I can't help you out of them. Call me a selfish bitch. Blame me. At this point, I'm beyond the point of caring how wrong I am.

If you really love someone, you'll never say goodbye over something like this. Things like this happen everyday and people get over them, but what you're doing is telling me we can't. It only shows how much you thought our friendship was worth, that working past this is not something you're willing to do...

Tell me you don't miss the past, and I'll tell you that fine, I'll let our friendship go and say my goodbye. Because I do. I miss the times you used to write all about C, the complications before you guys made it together, show me her picture, tell me she's so beautiful, pretend to be mad that she's a shopaholic... The fun times. All the talk about music. Coffee. Life. Relationships. Everything.

So... can it all go back to the way it was..? Please?